“Maybe the journey isn’t so much about becoming anything. Maybe it’s about un-becoming everything that isn’t really you, so you can be who you were meant to be in the first place.” ~Paulo Coelho
Do you find yourself at a crossroads?
A little over 7 months ago, I did. It was one of the biggest ones of my life too. It wasn’t easy staring into the abyss trying to figure out which way to go.
I knew I couldn’t stay on the same path I was on…which wasn’t a healthy one. I had just had the worst year of my life health wise and I was scared enough to know that I needed to make a major change. I chose a new direction going down a road I had never traveled before. I was scared, but I was also determined. My ten-year-old son was a big driving force for me. I didn’t want him to go down the same path I had so I knew it was up to me to lead by example.
I’m glad I chose the road I did because it’s led me here. By no means is my journey over. Heck no…just the opposite! I am learning new things every single day and I have to pay attention that I stay on the correct path.
It’s easy to lose your way. There are distractions at every turn. You must stay focused and committed to your goals. If you don’t you will wander back onto the familiar trails that weren’t going in the right direction for you.
I know all about this because I spent my entire adult life on a diet roller coaster (which actually began when I was 12). I had body dysmorphia. I spoke negatively to myself frequently. I didn’t do certain things because of my shame. I hid food. I ate my emotions (happy, sad, mad, glad). I had absolutely no control in this area of my life. It controlled everything I did.
The crazy thing is that I hid all of this quite well from everyone. I smiled, I laughed, I was successful and I never let anyone in to this deep, dark side of myself. My story is one that shocks some people (I’m only sharing a tiny part of it here). I’m okay with that. I share my journey in hopes of helping others. I know I’m not alone when it comes to what I’m sharing.
The good news is you can find a different road to walk on. I finally found what works for me. After 30 years of being “lost” it feels great to know where I’m going and to be surrounded by others on this same journey. If you are ready to make a change reach out to someone who has things in common with you. Perhaps we share a similar story. There is safety in allowing others who have been there in. Your life can be totally different in a very short time. Have the courage to look within and know that you deserve better. Then take a breath and send that message, make that phone call, and reach out. Your tribe is waiting for you…and so is the life that you deserve. I’m here if you need me too...let's connect. Here’s to you! 💋~Cheyenne